#6 Winter is Almost Here

Hello Everyone and welcome to a delicious late-Autumn blog. I am so excited for these cold and icy mornings.

Today I thought it might share one of the ‘outside of art’ projects I’m currently working on - ‘The Cottage’.

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As we transition into the cold weeks of Winter here in the Southern Hemisphere, Australia, I’ve headed four hours North to my little cottage - my ‘sanctuary’, or ‘Witches Hovel’, as I lovingly refer to it as.

I bought this land a few years ago now and for the most part it’s been a destination to get me far out of the craziness, noise and smell of the city - a place where I could reconnect with nature, reset and heal my body, mind and soul, and a place where I could re-energize my creative flow.

My little parcel of land has no grid electricty or legally liveable shelter (other than my vehicle), and Winter temperatures often drop below 0 degrees Celcius, but I wouldn’t be anywhere else in the world. This is my happy place.

The feeling I get when I am here (in my ‘safe space’), is truly magical. There are actually no words to describe it, because the feeling is something I breathe in - like a mystical vibration - and while this little part of Australia might not be for everyone, this little space is simply too perfect and too amazing for me.

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This restoration is just one of the ‘outside of art’ projects I am currently working on, and it is truly a labour of love. There is a LOT of work involved, so, so much, but I want to savour and enjoy every single aspect of progress I make - no matter how great or small, and I want all the finished details to be exactly as I see them in my imagination - that sacred space where the manisfestation process begins.

As always, Autumn is my most favourite time of the year. This is because where I live (when I’m up North), we don’t really get much of a ‘Spring’. That is to say - we seem to get a couple of weeks of it, but then ‘BAM!’, it suddenly feels like the intense heat of Summer starts pressing in, and we struggle to survive each day as the temperatures climb higher and higher.

You will find that, as you travel further North (to inland or mid/interior-Australia), there are no cooling coastal breezes to ease the impact of the hot desert winds of Summer, or tropical rain forests to soften the freezing and icy temperatures of Winter.

On these days of endless heat, I can’t really get anything productive done, because I’m sheltering from the intense sun throughout the day and I’m so exhausted by the time nightfall or evening arrives, I just want to crawl into bed, rest and enjoy the cooler part of the daily cycle.

During this hotter time of year, the ground is also really hard, because it contains a lot of clay and this makes working with the soil quite challenging.

Preferring the icy cold of Winter, to those extremly hot and exhausting days, means I really make my focus on journeying North during the cooler months, so I can breathe in the fresh, crisp air and get on with both more physically demanding projects and creative - whether gardening, landscaping, maintenance, writing, photography or art etc…

As the season transitions, and the landscape magically transforms from an arid, dusty desert-scape, to rolling miles of lush green fields, Autumn and Winter are the perfect seasons to get busy digging our rich clay earth.

The seasonal rains make the deep, rich soil soft and delicious to work with. It is also the perfect time to prune sleeping trees of unwanted twigs and branches, and to get any post or plant holes dug.

Summer and the land is rusty-brown. It thirsts for Winter rains.

Winter and Ice | Frost blankets the now greener land and an Ice Rainbow is captured as the Suns rays glisten on ice crystals in the air.

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Living so far North (at the highest altitude point of our State), means I get to experience the full extremes of our beautiful Australian climate. It also means that I am limited to the times of year I can not only work in my garden, but also when I can work on the restoration of my cottage.

This Spring will be my first real attempt at commencing restoration work on the stone-work. Until now, I’ve been focusing on planning and creating the kind of garden space I would like to have in the future and establishing shade trees as soon as possible.

I have had many successes and failures with my ‘plant babies’. I have planted and grown attached to some very special members of what I hope to form a part of my edible food forest. Some of the species planted survived, others didn’t make it. I was too little prepared to aid their success during seasonal extremes. These lessons were very heartbreaking for me - not only in terms of lost grow time, or establishment time, but also, because each little bush or tree I’ve planted has had a very special place in my heart. I have poured all my heart, my love, my hopes and dreams into each one, and that feeling of loss and sorrow when they didn’t survive, is just terrible. Each one is like a dear family member to me.

Even though my little parcel of land is part of a tiny rural commmunity and not completely isolated, I like it this way. It’s comforting to know my kind neighbours are just a little down the dusty road and we always look out for each another.

I do have access to connect to grid power (if I choose), right outside my front door, but I am very much into permaculture, organic home and garden care, off-grid, alternative living and all that holisitic ‘good stuff’, so while I have the choice to remain off-grid and have the means to generate solar and wind power, I will definitely choose those options over grid connection any day. I like to be as self sufficient as possible.

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This Spring I will be very busy. I have a LOT of repointing to do, both on the internal and external walls, before I can even apply render and lime-wash/paint finishes, and I only have a tiny window of time to get as much done as I possibly can. This process will take me quite some time as I work on my own with the limited season and limited time.

Given the extreme Summer and Winter temperatures I experience (-7C-48C), I am unable to work on this part of the project during any part of our Winte. It just gets too cold. The Lime (the proper and tradtional restoration Lime), requires very specific optimum temperatures which it can be mixed and used at.

For example, Lime mortar should not be used below 5 degrees Celsius or above 30 degrees Celcius (unless a misting-system is in place), because if the temperatures are too cold, the Lime will take forever to ‘cure’ or set (it might not set at all) and in extreme heat, the Lime will crack, weaken and potentially look ugly, and I definitely don’t want that either.

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At the moment, our entire region is still waiting for seasonal Autumn rains, (which are very late). It’s like the whole earth is holding its breath, waiting for the magic to begin.

The entire landscape remains a rusty-brown colour and the Winter grasses (which usually come after the first good rain or two), are yet to push through the soft soil.

There is so much for me to look forward to in the coming months, years even, and it’s truly a joy to be able to share my adventures with you.

I hope my little adventures inspire you to embark on your own wonderful journey in some way.

I might leave you here for now and return to the stillness around me. I too will wait for the heavens to open and transform the arid landscape into lush green fields once more.

Until next time my precious friends, stay healthy, happy and safe.

Sending you all my love - Hakora

#5 My Path to Healing and Transformation

Hello Everyone!

Today is May 1st and we’re in our last month of Autumn here in Australia and my heart is truly bursting with happiness, peace and joy.

Autumn is my most FAVOURITE season of the year and I truly want it to last a little longer, or perhaps start a little earlier, to ease the harshness of our Summers, but I can’t fight the seasons, so I will embrace these beautiful days - the cool, crisp Autumn air, the incredible stillness and peace of the evenings and be so so thankful to even have these moments to appreciate.

Port Noarlunga ~ South Australia, Australia

In my last blog I shared a little update about things unfolding in my personal life and given the ‘heavy’ nature of the subject, I don’t want to burden too much of this new blog dwelling on what I shared, but I just want to say why I felt it important to share such an intense and sudden personal experience.

I hoped by sharing my journey, you might understand a duration of silence or a huge gap in my blogs for a short period of time, as I was unable to put words to anything and was trying to find my way.

I also hoped that by sharing, if it somehow helped give hope to even one of you (if you are going through a similar process or experience), you might not feel so alone.

I just wanted you to realise and understand (if you are experiencing this chaotic moment in your life), that you are not alone, you ARE loved. Each of us shares an amazing connection, which can afford us healing in some crazy, magical way.

I’m not sure how it all works and I know I have a long way to go before being or feeling fully healed, but I do know that by reaching out and sharing my story, somehow it helped with the ‘beginning’ stages of my healing, and I hope to share that healing with you.

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A message of Love

Becoming an ‘abandoned wife (partner or husband)’ is not something I wish anyone to go through. It is incredibly heartbreaking and confusing, but I realise there are many of you who have experienced this or are going through this (or something similar), and I just want to send you a HUGE, loving hug and a tonne of positive vibes.

I also want to give you this little message - ‘You ARE enough. You ARE worthy of great love AND you deserve better’ - a very important message I try to remind myself of every day.

Each day, as I transition this ‘new life’, I remind myself to breathe - breathe in love, compassion, serenity and grace, and to release all negative heartache and sorrow as I breathe out. Then I close my eyes and accept a huge hug (full of unconditional love and compassion), from the Universe.

Oh my gosh! It’s such a beautiful healing process.

Always know, I love you, I appreciate you and I’m sending you so much positive energy <3 .

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What Have I Been Up To Since ‘We’re Done’ ?

Now I want to share with you a little bit of what I’ve been up to all these weeks…

As we transition through the month of May, we draw nigh to the end of Autumn and farewell the golden light and colour, which otherwise blankets the earth where I live.

Soon the skies are covered with grey, blue, black and purple clouds, heavy with rain, and the overnight temperatures plummet to zero degrees celcius and below. These dark and sombre days are just perfect for snuggling down with hot chocolate and warm fires in the evenings; and if the days are not too ‘soggy’, these are perfect for doing the many projects we can’t get done in Summer, because it’s just way too hot.

However, for now my heart clings to the beauty of Autumn and the magic it brings…even if the rains are a little late in arriving.

Sleeping Grandmother Willow ~ The Cottage

Football field - Yongala ~ South Australia, Australia

Farmlands off Mid-North Highways, South Australia, Australia

Farmlands awaiting much needed rain….Mid-North South Australia, Australia

First Fire of the Burning Season, The Cottage tradition, Yongala, South Australia, Australia

Twilight ~ Yongala, South Australia, Australia

Aurora Australis ~ The Cottage, Yongala, South Australia

Until next time my lovelies - All my love Hakora <3

#4 Autumn ~ First Fires & Unexpected Change

Port Noarlunga, South Australia

Hey beautiful Souls! Greetings from a very fresh Autumn day in South Australia.

Today I’m sharing with you from the safe and cosy comfort of my ‘bed-office/art studio’ in the city.

It seems a fitting place to ‘re-start’ or resume my journey of sharing with you - a journey that has literally only just started, but a LOT has happened since I set out to transform my little world (indeed my life), several months ago, and to be honest, I’m still processing so much as I try and find my feet.

It feels incredibly awkward sharing the not-so-happy aspects of life with people I’ve never met, but my decision to open this portal was always done knowing I wanted to share this intimate journey in all it’s fullness. It is a journey of truth and transparency.

So, I here I go…as I try to put my recent experience to words.

Like so many, I hoped, believed and trusted that my relationship (my marriage) was for life - I thought our union was safe and happy, full of love….stable, fulfilling.

Until it wasn’t.

In a single moment, a metaphorical axe fell and everything I ever believed in and trusted in was destroyed in an instant. The stoically spoken words “We’re done”, cut my heart in two and I truly felt like I was bleeding out…dying some agonizing, disbelieving death.

I have never felt so lost and heartbroken as I did in that moment.

Flooded with utter distress, confusion, betrayal, loss and nausea, I felt like I floated (and not the good kind of happy floating), my toes leaving the ground, as I was consumed by raw, savage grief.

Begging the Universe I cried silent grief-stricken words, ‘Can this even be happening…I mean is this reeeeally happening?', before breaking down into cycles of uncontrollable sobbing and absolute despair.

This all occurred in those first hours and days…of becoming an ‘abandoned wife’.

Today (several weeks later), I sit in the stillness alone, still confused, heart broken and grieving, I remind myself to breathe, deep, healing breaths of Universal love and peace.

I pass the moments processing the overwhelming grief in a curious and magical way - all the while knowing and understanding, that each new day is filled with new light, new opportunities and new hope, and that everthing is ok, I WILL be ok - I AM ok.

There is NO blame, there is no anger, hatred or bitterness in my heart, just shock, disappointment and disbelief (possibly quite a few questions).

Our marriage wasn’t filled with anger, arguements, struggles, financial issues, cheating and unfaithfulness etc. The words “We’re done.” literally came out of the blue and literally took my breath away, as my brain attempted to process them.

As shocking and heartbreaking as this experience is for me in this moment, I also realise it’s not the end of the world. The grief will pass and I WILL find my way.

In truth I foresaw the shadowing of the potential for this in February/March 2023 - a niggling anxiety, a sense of fearfulness, restlessness and nagging concerns of ‘contentment’ began to claw at my heart and mind, as the Universe tried to awaken me to realising things needed to change in my life .. or were about to change ..

Those subtle (and not so subtle) messages whispered from the Universe indicating a catalyst was needed or on its way - an event to bring experiences and change. I knew this change was needed in order to bring my life more into alignment with my core beliefs and truths - the direction I wanted and needed…my life to flow.

Despite ALL of this ‘knowing’, nothing prepared me for the actual shock and heartbreak of the words “We’re done”.

It is interesting to recall the thoughts, feelings and insights, those moments afforded me.

I never expected or wanted to make this life-journey alone. I still don’t. I signed up for the duration, the complete package. I believed my unconditional love and devotion would be reflected, if I loved hard and strong enough.

I’m not sure “We’re done” means ‘We’re done for good’ .. or it’s something we can both work through in time - after all, he is still my husband and do still love and adore him beyond reason, but for now, what I DO know, is that this is an experience, which quite simply … must be processed…I must process.

I know there are so many of you who have a similar experience or story to tell - a heartache, tragedy or unique journey. You/I are not alone. It is not the end of the world for us … even though it feels like it.

Our lives are being transformed to make way for greater things.

So, as I transcend this experience with absolute love, unconditional love .. and grace. I will ‘trust the process’ and Divine guidance I’m afforded. I’ll accept those hugs from the Universe, which I so dearly need and I’ll face each new day with dignity, grace and courage.

If you’ve even made it this far reading my ‘mini novel’, I am so so thankful you were kind enough to bear with me. Your love and positive energy is truly appreciated.

I will heal in the coming months and do an incredible amount of long over-due introspective ‘shadow work’ etc. I will continue to expand on my love, kindness and compasion and I will continue to create art, share here with you and restore my little cottage .

When The Cottage is a little more user-friendly, livable and dust free to work in (which might take some time - as progress is slower for me - a one woman show now), I’ll share more from on location there too.

Until next time my lovelies, (which is hopefully in 30-ish days from now), stay safe and blessed as I look forward to sharing some new art and a new story.

gentle hugs & Love - Hakora

The Cottage - Yongala, South Australia - Australia

#3 Happy 2024

Digital/Combined AI Baba Yaga Hut Concept Art

Happy New Year EVERYONE

Welcome to a brand new entry and a brand new year filled with new hopes, new dreams, new plans and new goals!

I’m a bit late with the whole ‘New Years’ thing, but there are a few reasons for this - one of them being I promised myself I’d ‘ease gently’ into this current year.

I have a few ongoing health issues I’m trying to get under control and I’m really glad I spent this time nurturing myself and healing.

Other reasons, I got caught up managing additional projects, family issues and reflective ‘moods’.

I’m particularily excited fort 2024, because I have loads of new material, stories, characters, adventures and ideas to share with you and I truly can’t wait!

LOOKING BACK

Reflectively, 2023 was very busy (believe it or not and behind the scenes in particular). I did a HUGE amount of learning/self-teaching (an endless process).

I dabbled quite a bit with new technologies and various programs, designs, products, layouts, marketing and advertising, artisic styles, creative outlets, on top of some very important ‘side-projects’ relating to the restoration of our cottage and land - a journey you can also catch-up on via my Facebook or Instagram accounts (if you’d like), and a journey I plan to share more about via here aswell.

All in all, I found the learning and experiences of 2023 hugely rewarding and I’m looking foward to expanding on my skills and knowlege throughout 2024.

2023, ‘spare time’ was spent working with graphite, digital and (the very contraversial) AI, fantasy art - mediums I enjoy immensely and will continue to employ in the future.

Cindy-Lou - Mixed-media Watercolour | Coloured Pencil Art

As a ‘mixed-media’ artist, I express myself creatively through an eclectic mix of mediums, and feel my greatest joy when I express myself that way. I don’t think this is about to change any time soon. I find skipping between mediums somehow stimulates my creativity, and always has. This is both a blessing and a curse, because it can mean I have several projects on the go, (which appear half finished - as some of them are), and to an ‘outsider’, my creative ‘flow’ can seem more like a whirlwind of chaos, than anything meaningful or productive - something I’m sure many artists and creatives can relate to.

As always, ‘fantasy art’ is my ‘go-to’ preference (when it comes to art, reading AND writing); and my photography will always be related to the magical connection with nature - most preferrably the ‘micro worlds’ and the hidden worlds of Fairies, Gnomes, Pixies, Brownies, Mermaids, Imps, Elementals, Elves, Sprites, Goblins, Witches, Wizards, Dragons, Giants and all such mystical beings.

Baba Yaga Graphite Concept Art

I think my family and beyond, have often viewed my creative oddities as a form of ‘escapism’, but this is far from the reality. The truth of the matter is, I have always had some kind of connection with the magical, the mysterious and the unexplained…and for some, that’s a little too hard to accept or understand (for whatever reason).

Over the years, I’ve learned that’s ‘ok’, because it’s like trying to explain to someone (who’s never seen the ocean) that’s it’s real and it exists - and now I share my experiences and my ‘oddiities’ with those who CAN understand and appreciate that there’s a lot more beyond the ‘veil’, than our tiny human minds can ever comprehend.

Magic is and always will be, a part of my life and creative expression!

2023 Highs & Lows

The entire duration of 2022-2023 was probably one of the hardest periods of my life, both physically and emotionally.

Every aspect of my life felt like it was out of control or in ‘overload’.

I guess it makes sense for imbalance to manifest in such a way, especially if ones ‘physical body’ is out of whack/balance, (I’m sure many of you understand exactly what I mean), but I truly wasn’t prepared for any of it.

There seemed to be a ‘butterfly’ effect for every issue, and I felt like I was drowning…alone in an inky-black ocean of saddness, fear, self-loathing, insecurities and goodness knows what else.

The Journey

Speaking of ‘alone’, one of the biggest experiences I’ve had since beginning this journey, IS loneliness - something I literally didn’t expect (given my large and loving family).

I simply wasn’t prepared for the roller-coaster of emotions that go with the various experiences as a wife, aunt, sister, mother, grandmother, artist, writer, photographer AND someone solo-building their own business, all while unknowingly entering the unspoken realm of Menopause.

I was not prepared for the heart-wrenching sense of isolation AT ALL.

For all the love and words (expressed as family ‘support’), I felt incredibly alone with the work-load, ideas and dreams - issues many will argue that only I could resolve (which is true…these projects were/ARE mine), but as a primary carer, giver nurturer, matriach…it just would have been nice to have had some help from time to time with things like SEOs, marketing, uploads…A HUG! Someone to say .. you’ve got this….you’re doing amazing….keep up the good work, but there was nothing - just a wall of silence.

The exceptional hard work and burden of living life and bringing everything to life on my own, was certainly almost too much.

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In closing

Despite the overwhelming tears, doubts and fears, there was a comforting and gentle presence, guiding me, teaching me - giving me strength and understanding ‘This IS ‘my’ journey after all’. No one else can see the the creative images in my mind, nor the visions I have for future projects and so on. No one else can bring them to life…like I can; and at the end of the day I alone can claim ownership to all that hard work and take pride in it all.

…and so, with this ‘unseen’ and invisible force bestowing strength and determination at the times I felt at my weakest, saddest and most helples, my Angels, Fairies and other magical beings, lifted me up, encouraged me, inspired me…and gave me hope.

Dare To Dream

Josephine Digital AI Concept Art

As we venture into 2024, my plans?

Well, I’m dedicating a large amount of my energy to holistic healing practices and self-care, with an absolute focus on emotional, physical and spiritual balance - all while juggling a small business, art, family, physical challenges, new projects and many other amazing adventures.

I realise this is ‘easier said, than done’, and I have quite a bit of work to do in all three areas, because I think somehow ‘lost myself’ over the years (anyone older and who has children and grandchildren will esecially understand what I mean), but self-care, is in crisis globally, and it’s important for each of us to realise (or remember), that we can’t give to anyone (aka help anyone)…from an empty cup.

Sad Immortal Fairy - Graphite work in progress.

At some point in our lives, we need to realise ‘Hang on….I don’t feel like the ‘me’ I would like to be!’. We need to realise we’ve filled so many ‘roles’ and ‘people-pleased’ away who we ‘really’ are, that we no longer actually even ‘know’ WHO we are any more - and that’s when the real adventure begins….when we truly begin to live life on our terms. We need to revert to that carefree, child-like mentality of yester-year, in the quest for a deeper understanding and acceptance of ourselves.

2024 is a year of manifesting EVERYTHING my minds-eye can envision and I dare to dream. It’s a year of mindfulness, healing, self awareness and grace.

…and so, to end

I wish each and every one of you, a safe, blessed and peaceful New Year - one filled with magic, wonder and enchantment.

Flee the mundane and embrace your inner-child - find your inner-Fairy and let the magic begin!

Until next time…

Sisters - Digital AI Concept Art

#2 Today, It’s All About The Fairies

Moon Fairies

Hello again Everyone!

I hope you are doing great!

One of the most beautiful aspects of my creative journey, is the magical and immersive energy which surrounds and inspires me every day!

This amazing energy brings me endless joy and drives my creativity.

Today, I am excited to begin cataloging and sharing the back-stories for the character-art displayed on the gifts in my webshop.

I truly hope I can relay each narrative in an interesting and immersive way, so that you too can feel the magic of each tiny character and its origins.

Once complete, you will find links to each magical being here.

Rose

#1 WELCOME to My Very First Blog Post

Greetings Everyone and welcome to my little blog!

My name is Hakora and I really look forward to sharing the love, laughter, tears and joy of life as an artist (and more), living life offgrid in one of the most challenging regions of country South Australia, Australia.

Here I will share news and updates on life beyond ‘online’, art and everything in between. I will also attempt answer any questions you might have about my current and future art or personal projects.

I am always open to sharing ideas and discussing interesting topics relating to art, design, product needs, design or product improvements.

This first little entry is quite brief, but I look forward to sharing more of what I’m working on and what my goals are, in the future.

There is a ‘contact’ link at the top of the page if you would like to reach me privately and an ‘About’ section for a quick over-view about me and my journey.

Everything website/webshop is quite new to me, so I truly appreciate your patience as I set things up and get familiar with the various processes involved.

I look forward to sharing again soon - until then, stay safe and well!